In this course, I feel as I have learned quite a bit. I previously had not heard of the term of affordance. When the idea was introduced in the first intensive, I really did not have any idea what was going on or how it related to digital media. Through the readings and sketching, I slowly began to understand the term as written here and here am now able to teach friends about the idea and how it relates to mobile videography. I now see the word a bit differently as I can recognise affordances in objects, and design. I work with graphic and motion designers daily and I feel like my understanding of affordances has helped me develop my appreciation for design and ability to critique and give direction to their work.
I have also learned about the psychology of digital memories through my research of my chosen affordance. I knew that technology was impacting humans, but I did not know how much of an effect it was having on human memories. This new knowledge was an unexpected bonus from this course.
I have also learned about different filming techniques and different apps to use on the mobile phone. I had no idea of the capabilities of the mobile phone when it comes to filmmaking.
I feel like this course was a semester long struggle for me. It’s not that the work was too advanced or challenging, but that I don’t naturally see and think in the way required. I appreciate and understand the theories presented in the course, but the technical aspects are not something I enjoy or excel at. If this course had been entirely theory based, I would not have struggled as much.
Throughout my life I have always felt the need to express myself in an artistic way. I have tried ballet, jazz, acting, violin, choir, studio art, drawing, ceramics, photography and most recently filmmaking and mobile filmmaking. Each time, I never felt like what I had in my head ended up on paper or film. This course highlighted that fact as I was required to make so many sketches and iterations and yet, none managed to turn out like I had envisioned.
It was a very frustrating semester for me as I felt disappointed with each sketch and iteration despite my efforts. I am not saying I tried harder than my peers or that my peers had less struggles than I but for most of my peers, this type of artistic expression is something they want to pursue as a profession. For me, this is not the case. I have found my calling elsewhere.
Despite the fact that I struggled this semester, I did recognise some strengths in this process. Writing weekly reflections on each studio as well as reflections to each sketch really allowed me to improve my ability to reflect on what I was doing and learning. I feel that one of my strengths is my ability to be honest with myself and others about my struggles with this class and the assignments. Writing out how I was feeling about the sketches and readings, really allowed me to understand what I did and didn’t understand. Even reading back on my previous blog entries, I am surprised as I feel despite my struggles, I have actually learned a lot and grown through the course of this class.
I can continue to work on my filmmaking skills as well getting ideas from my head to paper or film. But as I am not confident my skills will improve significantly and I have come to terms with that, I plan to focus more on expanding my knowledge in a theory based format and improve my ability to understand and critique others work. I feel that I am more suited to be a critic rather than a creator.
I think my practice has changed quite a bit through the sketching process. I always thought I needed a really clear direction before shooting something and through sketching, I’ve realised that I can figure out something simply by going out and experimenting. I struggled a lot with Project 3 because I focused so much on coming up with an idea before filming. But through reading Buxton, I was able to just relax a bit and experiment. I am now not so focused on having a clear vision before filming.
Through the research aspect of this course, I have began to look at films and mobile videos differently as well as seeing the impact of post industrial media. Even looking back on this post, I feel like now I have even more knowledge/opinions on the subject. It’s taken the entire semester for everything to kind of sink in and make sense in my head. But now the knowledge I’ve gained from research, the actual practice I have been doing and observing media in real life have come together.
While I am happy with my final work, I am not sure it truly shows my affordance or the ideas of not living in the moment and distancing yourself from reality. I outlined my difficulty in blog posts on Iteration #2 and Final Work.
Blog Posts (all should be categorised as PIM):
Using a Post-Industrial Approach towards Filmmaking (linked above)/Studio Prompt (linked above)/Generation Like (linked above)/Response to Personal Portable Pedestrian: Lessons from Japanese Mobile Phone Use/Tangerine(linked above)